I first met Andrew when I was going to college we were both doing hairdressing,
I really liked him, I kept asking my friend if she thought he was gay, I thought it was strange, Andrew was so nice to me.. But he was doing hairdressing. I thought he's got to be too good to be true?
One night I thought why don't I just add him as friend on Facebook, see how things go. So I did, we got chatting, the normal conversations you do when you just get talking to someone 'How are you?' 'What made you pick hairdressing and so on' I asked him if he had a girlfriend/ boyfriend, he said he's not gay but no girlfriend. Bingo!
I chatted to him even more, we chatted every night, every day, I was scared to meet up with him, I have bad anxiety, I was so scared to meet up because he thought of thought I was weird in person.
He got fed up of me not wanting to meet up- he was getting angry, which was understandable- it was 6 months before I decided that yes I should meet up- but I wasn't going to meet with him alone. I got my best friend to come over, we decided to meet at a public place in a pub. I've never been to a pub before so had no idea how to dress, so me and my friend was short dresses, high heels, big hair and fake tan. The pub was my village pub so when we arrived we looked like twats! Everyone was staring at us, it was awful! Andrew arrived on his ped. I was a nervous wreck. My best friend got some drinks for us, we all had a baileys for drink. Things we're going well!
I needed the toilet so I asked Steph if she could come with, I went down the step to get into the toilets however Steph didn't go down the step, she tripped over!! She went flying! I found it hilarious but she of course, didn't! She had dogs sniffing up her dress, everyone was laughing at her. After that, we all decided it was best we went back to mine.
Back at mine, it was quite fun for me and Andrew, we we're all in my bedroom, I was on top of Andrew flirting- drawing on each ther (don't ask) and Steph was sitting on my chair looking at her phone. Andrew lives about half an hour away, but he got lost coming to mine, so my aunt was worried about him going home, she asked if he wanted to stay the night, I refused before he even answered, thoughts were going through my bed 'what if he sees me in daylight and goes off me' I knew he had seen me before in day light at college so I really didn't know why i was refusing.
So he went home, the next day at college was horrible! Andrew had told all the girls in my hairdressing group about him coming to mine, girls being girls made things really bad between us 'oh Andrew told us you had sex'
I had a huge argument with this girl, which made me drop out of college, things got awkward between us and we stopped talking after that.
A year later he made contact with me again, I was working at Boots now and he was doing whatever he was doing..
We started talking again, but I soon lost my interest, I started talking to other boys. I sort of saw Andrew as my gay best friend, I told him about the boys I was seeing, which he didn't like at all, he told me about how he loved me, but I thought hmm, he doesn't really so that's when he had enough this time and we lost contact again.
Now another year on, I was in my room one night, I started thinking about Andrew, I really really missed him. I missed having someone I could talk to about anything and him not judging me, however I was seeing another boy at this time (nothing serious) and I really didn't want to hurt Andrew again, so just left it.
I was meant to be seeing the lad that night in a hotel, so my friend and I went to B&M to get some drinks, I knew Andrew worked there, but thought he may have left as it was a year later. We went in and there he was.. Looking gorgeous as ever. This is going to be awkward I thought to myself. We talked, I hugged him. My friend was talking to him about hamsters. Anyway we got the drinks and left. We went to get some lunch, subway, which was right next door, I went to the toilet, told Alana what I wanted so she ordered. I came out of the toilet and there he was aagain. Oh no! He's going to have lunch with us.. What the hell am I going to talk about!!
But thank god Alana was with us, she did the talking.
After about half an hour of talking we said our goodbyes, we exchanged numbers, hugged and I thought that was the end of the things... Little did I know, that was the start of things..
We now have a daughter together!
Love
Lauren xxx
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